But God
I have no clue what I am doing; however, I have heard from several women/men of God that God equips the “called” therefore here I am Lord Jesus asking that you lead me whatever you want this to go, as far you want this to reach.
A few decades ago, I found myself always looking for answers, always searching, primarily asking myself “If God says He is love, then why is this happening? If the Lord hears us, why I can I hear Him?
Life hit me pretty hard sometimes. I know that certain things I did and said was not what Jesus would have wanted me to do or say. Often weekends and nights felt too long for me. I would always look at a window and thought to myself “when is this night going to be over” I would say Lord I want the morning to come. I always felt renewed in the morning, I felt I was able to breath better. As soon as I saw a ray of sunshine something within me renewed and I just kept going. Even though I experienced hurtful things I would always forgive easily, I thought to myself why am I this way? I need to hold grudges longer because people walk all over me. Later on my walk with the Lord I learned I was built differently, and the very first thing that I didn’t like about myself was just what the Lord loved the most about me. Many nights I would look online for encouragement, if someone can tell me what they did when they had nights like mine it would help but I found nothing.
The Lord wants to show us His plans for our lives; however, we will not be able to understand what that is until we decide to surrender all to Him. The Lord wants to talk to us but we will not hear Him if we have one foot in the world and one with Him. Are we perfect? Absolutely not, but through the process of building a relationship with Him, and talking to him through prayer you will know who our Father in Heaven is.
If you are having one of those weeks, weekends, nights or days, I encourage you to talk to God because the Lord will not reject a contrite heart. He is closer than ever when you are feeling down, sad, alone, forgotten, confused or hurt. The Lord LOVES you oh so much!
Heavenly father as your children read this blog, allow them to find encouragement in my words, Lord show them a little ray of sunshine and remind them that you loved them too much. May your face shine down upon them and bless them, in the might powerful name of Jesus I’ve prayed.
-Diana